Life update, notes to self, blah blah 160916

[Feel free to skip reading this if you have better things to do, these are just notes to myself mostly aaa]

Welp i've failed the daily drawing challenge argh, only drew for 7 days and even the days weren't consecutive, kept having break-days where I just come home from internship and zzzz. Also not been feeling good about the amount of work i give myself. On one hand I know I'm probably overloading myself with too much personal projects and end up not touching/finishing any, but on the other hand I feel I've gotten lazier whenever I allow myself to rest, or attend to other life matters (e.g. family time, exercise, chores, gaming, outings with friends). Gah workaholic tendencies. I need to get my priorities straight...

So daily inked drawings are out of my plans for now. Instead of spending 1-2 hours after work when I come home (tired) on daily inked drawings, I'll use that time to work on more important/urgent things - like the Game Innovation Programme (GIP) artist test. And if I'm sick of that, instead of stressing myself out on daily inked drawings, I'll turn to my personal projects (works-in-progress) OR pencil-doodle simple stuff in my sketchbook. At least I gotta keep that hand moving, right? Eheh. I realise I feel more passionate about bigger/longer art projects rather than one-off drawings (or single-character drawings)? No wonder I can't take commissions very well. I feel as if one-off drawings aren't worth my time/effort when I have bigger projects I wanna work on, like my comic or portfolio stuff. If I do smaller drawings, I usually don't go further than the sketch stage these days. Some of my older watchers would know that I used to do lots of one-off, single-character drawings (fanart mostly), but now I feel that these aren't worth my time beyond the sketch stage with my limited free time these days. Hnng.

Aaaanyway, this is how I'll fill my "free" time during internship. I'm enjoying the freedom of no take-home assignments very, very much. XD No more late nights!! Unless I purposely stay up to work on personal projects BUT THAT'S OKAY, AT LEAST IT'S NOT DEPRESSING SCHOOLWORK.

Will write more about internship when it ends. Basically I'm doing pixel art and a web project for an local indie game company. Learnt lot about the local game industry (the business side is so new but important to me aaa) through chit-chat with my colleagues.

The main reason I've been such a hypocrite with my drawing tasks could be because of all these changes in my life this year... a lot has happened, good and bad. I think I'm psychologically not used to such rapid changes so I haven't been drawing as much (EVEN THOUGH I HAVE BEEN FOR SCHOOL BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE IT'S NOT ENOUGH) but NO MORE EXCUSES! My hand shall keep on drawing!

Really need to keep gaming to once a week only, and with friends.

UPDATE [21 Sep 2016]: OH DAYUM NOW I GOTTA WORK HARD ON PORTFOLIO-BUILDING FOR THIS HIGH-STANDARD UNIVERSITY THAT I AM CONVINCED I HAVE A FIGHTING CHANCE FOR AFTER CHATTING WITH MY INTENRSHIP CO-WORKERS WHO ARE GRADUATES OF THAT PLACE. MORE ON THIS SOMETIME SOON.

[In Summary:] So what I'm doing / need to do before 18 Nov is...

1. Daily inked drawing.
2. GIP application test (3 sections. Do the first two)
3. Digipen portfolio-building
4. Weekly internship reflection.
5. Internship report (with nice layout and everything...)
6. THINK ABOUT Final Year Project - 2 proposals ("briefs")
7. Berura AE animation...?

As of this journal's latest update, I'm approaching Week 5/12 of my 3 months of internship...